Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Christmas love


I really want to tell you
Just how precious you are to me,
My every thought of you
Is as loving as can be
My heart is totally filled with things
That words alone can't say,
This comes especially for you
With love on Christmas Day.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

There's a special place


There's a special place in my heart that only you can touch -
a place where I can go and feel you near.
Throughout the day I think of you.
I see your smile, hear your voice and in my thoughts you lovingly appear.
The way we love each other makes it hard to be apart
so when I can't hold you in my arms, I hold you in my heart.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Love is


Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Fish in the sea


Even though there are a million fish in the sea, you're the only fish for me.

Monday, December 13, 2010

He will never forget how you made him feel


"He may forget what you said, but he will never forget how you made him feel."

It's still amazing to me how I feel when we are around each other. Feelings of love, passion, desire, romance, and cuteness all in one. It's so hard to describe it sometimes. Knowing that I am yours and you are all mine, and we belong to each other and no one else... The feeling of one-ness we create when we are together. Like we are almost absorbed into each other. That amazing feeling that you can't describe in any other way except, we are so unified, it's as almost as we are the same person; just one person. Is that weird? I guess this is what people mean when they say, "you complete me," or, "you are my other half." That's how I feel right now. The only thing I am afraid of is if we ever break up. If he's my other half right now, then when he's gone, I wont be whole. I'll feel as if a part of me is missing. But that brings me to another quote that I try to remember: "never make someone your everything, because when they're gone, you'll have nothing." I don't like to be a downer, just realistic. But a girl can always dream, right? :) I can hold on to the beliefs that my lover and I will be together forever, and I will never have to feel alone again. 


It's so obvious


Sorry I haven't posted anything that interesting lately. Tomorrow is my last day of the semester [only two more finals to go!] so I've been pretty busy lately. The good news is that I have off for an entire month for winter break! 

Saturday, December 11, 2010

A dream to me


"You know when you're in love when you cant fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams."

Friday, December 10, 2010

Those who love you


Those who love you are not fooled by mistakes you have made or dark images you hold about yourself. They remember your beauty when you feel ugly; your wholeness when you are broken; your innocence when you feel guilty; and your purpose when you are confused.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

I Love You!


I thought this video was cute. It always seems to brighten my day! 

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Those who danced


Those who danced were thought to be quite insane by those who could not hear the music.  :)

Real Lovers


Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly.

Monday, December 6, 2010

My Lovely Love Story


            When reading my blog, or hearing anything I have to say about my boyfriend, or love, it may seem kind of sickening and maybe even boring. It may seem as though I had been blessed with a perfect life and that everything has just come so easy for me. You must know, it wasn't always this way. I faced my fair share of hard times and heartbreaking experiences. With my boyfriend, I almost feel as though I've been rewarded for spending so many years in misery. I have learned that everything happens for a reason; and even though you might not see that right away, eventually you will realize that everything just falls into place the way it's supposed to. So, here is my story…
            I met my first boyfriend when I was thirteen. All through middle school I suffered of depression because I was relentlessly made fun of every single day and for that I just hated myself. I had the lowest self esteem and only two close friends. I felt so ugly and unworthy of any guy ever liking me. I cried every single day and even contemplated suicide. It’s safe to say that I’d rather block out most of my middle school years. Then I met him [let’s call him Phil]. I felt as though Phil had changed my life. He liked me, he was genuinely interested in me, and that honestly blew my mind. He told me that there was no competition between me and other girls, because that’s how great I was. For the first time in my life, I felt pretty, I felt loved, and most of all I finally felt happiness.
            We were together off and on for most of high school. He was always the one to break up with me, because he’d be interested in other girls. I never once even thought about dating another guy, and I would just eagerly wait for the day that Phil came back. That day always came, without a doubt, but it wasn’t fair to me. It took me until my senior year in high school to realize that I was not in a normal relationship. All of my friends and family told me to just get over him, and move on, but it’s one of those things that I finally had to figure out for myself. I guess it was just hard for me to let go because he was such an important factor in my path to recovery, to become a normal person again. He was the first person that I could honestly say I loved, and I let him have my whole heart and soul.
            Even though I decided to move on, Phil was always still in the back of my mind. I had met other guys, but I never gave any of them a fair chance because I didn’t want to let anyone else in. It was such a hard concept for me. Phil knew every single thing about me, better than I knew myself, and it took years for us to get to that point. How was I just supposed to start all over with someone new? At this point in time I had been working at a supermarket. It was in the summertime, right after I graduated high school. One day I was surprised to find myself working with a guy who was actually really attractive. [We will call him… Mike]. I immediately had a crush on him and wondered what it would be like to hang out with him. As if the universe had read my mind, I came home that night to find a friend request [on facebook] from Mike, and we ended up talking non-stop for the next few days. He asked me to hang out and I was so excited! I couldn’t believe this was all happening so quickly. When that day finally came, I told him I was sick and I cancelled our plans. All I could think about was Phil. Needless to say, I started ignoring Mike. He almost became annoying to me, because whenever he would text me, I would just get angry that he wasn’t Phil. I felt bad because it’s not like Mike knew what was on my mind.         
            Phil continued to consume my thoughts all summer long, and a little bit into the fall. Since I started college, though, it was really easy to finally officially forget about him. When I realized that I was finally ready to date other guys, I decided to talk to Mike. He seemed really uninterested in speaking to me, so I figured that he had completely moved on and probably never wanted to talk to me again. I was disappointed but I was also okay with that. After all, I was meeting tons of new guys every day.
            Sometime in February I had a dream that Mike was my boyfriend. It was so random to me because I had not even thought about him once since the fall. I had completely forgotten about him. But I took this as a sign and I decided to try to talk to him again. I was hesitant since he had blown me off back in the fall, but I knew I had nothing to lose. Talking to him was the best decision I have ever made in my entire life. Since that first night in February, we have spoken every single day since. It was so easy, and perfect. It was like the planets and stars all aligned and the timing was amazing and everything just cleared the path for me and Mike to be together. He admitted that when I tried to speak to him earlier that year, he wasn’t being short with me because he didn’t like me. He said it was because he thought I was only talking to him out of pity since I had blown him off in the summer. This made a lot of sense. I don’t wish it would have happened any other way though. I realized that at any other point in time, it just would have never worked out between us. It had to happen then. And I’m so grateful that he was still there for me when I was finally ready for him.
            Now every day when I wake up, the first thing I do is thank God for letting me be able to have Mike in my life. I appreciate my boyfriend every single day. I appreciate him because I know what life is like without him. “Someday someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.” Mike is so perfect for me, I can’t even describe it. And it finally makes sense why it never worked out with any other guys. Everything does happen for a reason. Now I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in my entire life, and I have my Lovebug to thank for that. <3

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Jim & Pam Love

"Love is giving someone the power to hurt you but trusting them not to."




Friday, December 3, 2010

According to Greek Mythology


According to Greek mythology, humans were originally created with four legs, four arms and a head with two faces.
Fearing their power, Zeus split them apart, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other half. 

Thursday, December 2, 2010

(500) Days of Summer - Ikea



This is my very absolute favorite scene of this movie! I bought the dvd just so I could watch the movie with my boyfriend, so he could finally understand what I mean when I ask him to take me to Ikea. He refuses to go, however, because apparently when he was little he had a bad experience in an Ikea which involved him getting lost. Now he has qualms about the store I guess, haha. It would be convenient for us to go anyway, the closest Ikea to us is about an hour away. We do have a Raymour & Flanigan about twenty minutes away, and that works for me. Hopefully we can get there soon so we can play house! And hopefully we don’t get kicked out right away for messing with the furniture. 

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

If I could have one wish


If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up every day to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine… knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

My hands are shaking


My hands are shaking 
from carrying this torch
from carrying this torch for you

My lips are bleeding 
from kissing you goodbye
from kissing you goodbye every night

My sheets are tearing
from sleeping in too long
from sleeping in too long with you

My hands are shaking
from carrying this torch
from carrying this torch for you

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Your love is my drug


                                         This is me when you’re not here :(

                I recently read that scientists have confirmed that falling in love basically generates the same euphoric feeling as using cocaine. It also stimulates intellectual areas of the brain as well as the stereotypical areas of the heart; and it only takes a fifth of a second to get you high. When you are in love, your brain releases euphoria-inducing chemicals that make you feel like you are on cloud nine. It makes so much sense now that I think about it. Sometimes when you just fell in love - or maybe you are heartbroken – you can’t eat or sleep! Once you’ve experienced love for the first time, you just gotta have more; and when you don’t get it, you go insane. 

                
This would also make sense as to why it is so difficult to get through a break-up. You are going through withdrawal. After having a dose of love every day for years and years straight, this can be something that even rehab might not be able to fix. I’ve been thinking about this concept lately whenever I miss my boyfriend. He goes to a different college then I do, so we only get to see each other during the weekends. We met during the school year so for months I was very used to only seeing him once a week. Then the summer came, our first summer together, and we got to see each other every single day. I got extremely used to that, and when school started up again, it was very difficult for me. The first week without him, I cried nearly every day. Imagine a daily cocaine user now having to cut back to only once a week – somehow I feel like they would still be having an easier time than I did. As the weeks went by, I slowly, slowlyyyyy, got used to only having one dose of my lovebug a week. I still miss him every day though… 

Friday, November 26, 2010

I love you more than...


I love you more than…
bunnies
pooh & piglet
bears
whispers & ghosts
keys & feathers
stars
Narnia
pirates
books & stories
the woods
the ocean
fairy tales
Christmas
treasure hunts
music
food
art
and fireworks.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

But most of all, I'm thankful for you


“Someday someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.”

I thought Thanksgiving would be an appropriate day to think about this quote. I am so thankful for my Prince Charming, every single day. I think about how I have spent so many years struggling with past relationships and how I would so desperately try to force things to work out. It's like the whole time, the universe was just shouting to me, "These guys aren't right for you! Your true soul mate is still out there!" My life has been a fairytale ever since I met him, and for that, I am eternally grateful. 

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

We're all a little weird



"We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love."

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

The Lovely Other Dinosaur

The Fierce Dinosaur was trapped inside his cage of ice until the Lovely Other Dinosaur came and melted it with kind thoughts and loving words. 

Now they stand together on the hill, telling each other stories and feeling the warmth of the sun on their backs.